In this episode JJ Carolan shares how she ignored post natal depression and ended up in the Psyche ER. It was following this pivotal moment that she was forced to listen to her inner voice and is now joyfully expecting her second child.
JJ tells us how she believes she ended up at this crisis point due to the pressure of trying to “keep it all together” and live up to EVERYTHING that women are expected to do.
She was working as the Clinical Director of an agency providing therapy to kids with Autism, long hours.
Raising a newborn that I had to leave at daycare sometimes 12 hours a day!
AND she was trying to live up to attachment parenting, making her own organic baby food, helping her parents keep their house tidy (she lived with them at the time) despite the newborn, and never mind be a wife and friend ~ trying to keep up going to all the social events like a happy mom should.
She kept dogging away at this pace while her soul was dying piece by piece, every moment she was on the road driving 5-6 hours away while her daughter was in someone else’s hands. While her marriage crumbled under the weight of all of this. While she started sabotaging her career and high profile job, mailing it in, cutting corners.
She was on complete autopilot.
Discover what happened when her body and soul had, had enough and she found herself on the psche ER ward.
Speak your truth.
The end of a Mary Oliver poem called 'The Summer Day'
"Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?"
All I Ask - Crowded House
Hurricane Kitty (yes like the beer!)